Goodbye dear Fluffy

So I had hoped that my first post after being back would be a happy one, but it is not. Our dear doggie Fluffy passed away last monday. She eventually crossed over on her own, with a little help from me and guides here and elsewhere. She was a very special dog, and she will be very missed.

Rest now, dear dear Fluffy….





Are we meant to keep pets?

Today I read a blog by someone else, that really was a rant about human mutant naked monkeys f*cking up nature as we speak. By branding certain animal species as vermin, because they are native to the land but eating imported animals that we mass produce as things only to (over)feed us.

This made me so mad, he was right. We humans are so bloody arrogant to give these beautiful creatures of nature a death-sentence for trying to survive in harsh times, because we are destroying their natural habitats for our own needs, so they can’t find food anymore. Because we are destroying the natural balance of things. Because we ourselves are not in balance with our own nature. And this is where it all falls to pieces. This is what is so wrong with the human race. The day they separated mind, soul and body as being something not as one.

Today I had some trees in my garden trimmed, because the neighbours with their concrete garden complained about not having enough light in their garden. And now I am staring at them, feeling their pain because their beautiful natural form is totally destroyed, and I feel so guilty! But as I live in the human world and I don’t want to get into a fight with my sour neighbours I, just for the sake of peace, went on and got them trimmed. And I feel weak. I feel weak because I didn’t stand up. Because the forestry feeling in my garden is gone. Because two birds nests were destroyed in the cutting process. And I see those birds searching for what they had made. Luckily the gardeners said there weren’t any eggs in it yet, but still, those birds have to start over building a nest. And probably not in these trimmed trees….. As I see all the birds in my garden, finding the food and shelter they need, because we destroyed their habitats I feel confused. I think about what we are doing. And this gets me to keeping pets. I wonder why we keep them. The word keeping or owning them is wrong on itself. The overall idea is that we want to keep pets because they give us a good feeling. But what is that good feeling? Why do they give us that? Aren’t they surrogates for something we have lost along the way of our own evolution? The ability for unconditional love? Towards each other? Pets love us no matter what they say. Of course that is to their own benefits because we feed them, and give them shelter. If they would stand up to their imprisonment they would be “humanely euthanized”. And of course there are people who keep animals because they want to dominate something. They want that animal to do what they say. Humans try to control everything, and I don’t think that is meant to be. There is no freedom for the animals we keep, and we are hypocrites. We overall take good care of our pets, or at least we think we do, with the best intentions, but we don’t care about the animals that live in the dairy, meat or farm industry. We totally have lost our connection to nature and what it is like to be truly free, because we are all prisoners of our own thoughts and feelings. When I look at the animal or plant kingdom and see that they totally accept life as it comes, with all the hard work to survive. And how we try to manipulate everything to our comfort. It kind of sickens me. Right now I think I will never have pets again after the ones I have now have passed on. Because if I gave them the choice, would they stay with me freely? I think not. I think they would want to roam free on this earth, be with their own kind, playing with their brothers and sisters, hunting, foraging, sleeping in the sun, running in the open fields. And would they come in contact with humans? They did once, we called it domestication. But that was of mutual benefits. We could help each other. But in the beginning that was not a forced process. When I see what we do to the animals nowadays, how dogs and cats and even other animals are bred for how they look, but not for their health. How farm animals are nothing more than numbers, then products that need to grow faster and faster. To fulfil the unbelievable greed of mankind. It saddens me. It makes me think that there is only one way to end this all. It is by eradicating mankind or….. with the waking up of mankind, to see what they are doing to the planet and their fellow earthlings. To really take responsibility. To start living in balance with each other and the planet again. To take life as it comes and not to try and manipulate it. I think we can live together with animals in freedom, and not force them to live lives in captivity. I think we can learn a lot more from animals that live in freedom than the animals we try to control. We have to find ways to keep “our” pets happy, because they cannot do what they were born for. We deprive them of everything that makes them animal. We take away their right to hunt, to forage, to move freely, to breed, to be with their own kind on their own conditions. But as long as humans cannot even treat each other as equal we probably won’t get that far. We should all find back the balance of life, feel comfortable with ourselves and our own species, accept life as it comes, and not try to fight those things that are natural.

I am trying to do that, but even that is not possible. I am not allowed to live where I want. Because the land is owned by other people, because man have created countries and borders. Because we are not one with nature. I have to pay for things I don’t want. I have to live by rules I don’t need. I have to get permissions for everything I want to do. I have to get degrees to perform a job, to use my naturally given talents to earn a living. It is unbelievable how everything is being controlled. It is time to let go…..

And as always…. These are MY thoughts, you don’t have to agree…. Freedom is also thinking for yourself……

Love and light

Elvis has passed on….

Sorry, the rest of the text is in Dutch, but today our old friend passed away at around 10:30 a.m.


12/6/1996 – 12/12/2012


16 jaar en 6 maanden. Dat was jouw tijd op moeder aarde in deze vorm. Een groot gedeelte van deze tijd hebben wij samen mogen doorbrengen. En wat voor tijd. Wat hebben we genoten van de rit. Pieken, dalen, vreugde, verdriet en vooral heel veel liefde, wederzijds respect en vertrouwen. Jij hebt in je leventje heel wat dierenvrienden zien komen en ook vaak weer gaan. Je overleefde ze allemaal. Maar nu mag jij gaan. Jij droeg jouw lot met zoveel trots en kracht, iets waar velen van ons van mogen leren. Tot je laatste adem ben je zo’n belangrijke teacher voor met name mij geweest. 12-12-12, zo’n bijzondere datum, voor mij, voor iedereen, voor de mensheid, voor moeder aarde en al om ons heen. Het uitdoen van oude jasjes, tijd voor nieuwe energie en op eigen benen staan. Op nieuwe maan, 13-12-12 zal ik je ziel helpen met overgaan. En dan mag je rusten en lekker gaan genieten, je oude en versleten omhulsel achterlatend, rennen met je vriendjes in het gras en op het strand, daar bij de Rainbowbridge. En als je er klaar voor bent mag je mij en iedereen die het nodig hebt gaan gidsen en leren op jouw eigen unieke manier. Ik zie je na 21-12-2012 wel weer verschijnen, als de zon en ster die je altijd bent geweest en zal zijn.

In eeuwige liefde en dankbaarheid,








Update on Elvis

It’s been a while since I wrote a blog. That is because studies are taking up a lot of time, it is going well, but leaves little room for other things to do. And the little time I do take off are preserved for friends, family and pets. Quality time as it is called.

I wanted to give an update on our process with my old doggie-friend Elvis. We have been with him to the park and to the beach and I sang some songs for him. In the beginning it was way too emotional for both of us, but I was also going too fast. So now we are taking it one step at a time.

The singing was the first bit and I overdid this, it really was too much for both of us and he actually got sick the first few days. So I contacted the animal-communicator and with her and Elvis I decided to take things slow, when he was ready for the next step. And I explained to Elvis that even if we didn’t get to do the things on his wish list physically we could always do them in spirit.

Going to the park was a different matter, we really liked it. He enjoyed himself, it was almost like the young dog was back in there. Afterwards we made a little tour through the village to the places where we used to live. He was sniffing and looking, really alert. Below are some pictures of that experience (park only).



Last weekend we went to the beach. This was a very beautiful experience, he was very aware that this was his last visit to the beach in this lifetime. He sat there, in the wet sand, enjoying the wind, the sand and the cool salty water. We cried….. A lot…. Below are some pictures of this beautiful experience…..





















So he still is on this earth, but he told me not to wait too long with his wish list. I sometimes feel he is half gone already, he doesn’t always respond when he is resting and I touch him. I can feel his energy is fading; the life-force is getting weaker.

I will miss him immensely but I am so thankful that I can experience this with him, and am able to give him the space he needs to leave this life on his own terms.

Love and peace,


The birth of two more absolute works of art

So after we got the painting of our dogs, the cats were up next 🙂 Here they are, we are so very happy and proud and so thankful again. Thanks again Marjolein 🙂

This is our lovely spiritual Luna:

and naughty Toendra:

For those who know the cats will see that they are very much “alive” in these paintings. That is such a great quality of this artist, she really knows how to catch the souls in her paintings 🙂

Have a great day!

Love and light,



Back to work it is and saying goodbye to an old friend…..

So…. the pc is back up and running….. We actually had to buy a new one. My poor husband has been irritated all week with this so I will give him a nice massage tonight for his tight neck-muscles and headache….. So now I am catching up on homework, emails and stuff…..

The other thing that came up last week is the fact that my very loved and old friend Elvis is saying goodbye to this life. Elvis is almost 16 now and I had my friend/animal communicator Mariet have a little talk with him because I couldn’t really connect with him at this time. His and mine emotions were standing in the way of opening up to each other, to really talk. He is ready to move on but he is feeling sad of letting me and his body go. He has been so happy living with us, as we accepted him for who and what he was, with his physical disabilities. So I am deeply honoured that he allows me to help him let go of his physical form. Of course this is an emotional process and it takes time for both of us to adept. A lot of helpers are near, and he is clearly giving me messages about what he needs to let go. For now he doesn’t want to be actively euthanized, he wants to try to let go on his own first. He needs the rest for doing this, and he needs to say goodbye to those who have known and helped him through the years. He also really wants to say goodbye to places we have spent happy times. So that is what we will be doing for him. Together with some flower remedies and homeopathy for his eye I will support him in this. This is a very important step for him and me. To have faith in the fact that even though he will leave this form we will forever stay connected, and that in his new form he will always be there for me. To help me, to guide me. As he has always done….

Of course I am crying my eyes out, but these are not just tears of sadness, but also tears of thankfulness and being honoured to stand by him in the last period of his mortal life.

These words from the Josh Groban song Higher window describes our relationship so well. I often dance with him to this song: How perfect we were meant to be, our warm and silent symmetry……..

So to those of you who know or have known Elvis, please come say goodbye to him, in real life or just in thought, he needs this to move on.

Love and light

Diana and Elvis

Introducing our housemates

So after all these deep blogs and thoughts I’d like to introduce you to my best friends in the whole world, our lovely pets! Sure I have human friends but that is just different, at least to me it is.

This is my old and dear friend Elvis. He is a Shih-Tzu, born on June 12th 1996, and that makes him an old dog….. Especially if you realize he has slowly been loosing his ability to walk since he was 6 years old. But we love each other deeply, we have a special bond. He has been with me since he was a puppy, he was there for me in troubled times, he pulled me through with his soft and stable character. Elvis is not one who asks for attention, he is the wise one in the background. So now I am there for him in his “troubled” times. He is almost completely blind, he has lost the sight in one of his eyes due to an infection, and he is almost deaf. But he still seems to enjoy life; he is not in any pain as far as I know. I’ve learned so much from him. The biggest lesson, letting him go, is yet to come, but I am confident that even in that lesson he will be the best teacher ever.

And this little cutie is Saraja. She also is a Shih-Tzu, born on August 21st 1999. So she is a bit younger. Saraja has had a difficult past, as she has shown me through animal communication, but she is coping with her past. She came to live with us as a friend for Elvis, in 2002. She is my “mirror” dog, she takes over my moods, or runs away from them. If I am nervous, she stops eating, if I am happy, she is relaxed. She is a little grumpy nowadays and almost completely deaf. She doesn’t like walking in the rain but she loves the snow. She always is happiest when her pack is complete, and starts howling if someone is “missing”. She is a very special dog that helps me learn a lot about dog behavior and the bond between humans and dogs. And she thinks she is a cat, I am pretty sure of that 😉

And here we have Fluffy! She is a Bichon Frisee, born on April 4th, 1999. She is a very happy dog, she only wants to be with you, on you, walking with you, taking care of you, making sure you are just as happy as she is! She actually is mad about my husband, and he is always joking around, trying to give her to other people. Fluffy came to live with us in 2006, as a friend for Saraja, in case Elvis would pass away. You should know that the vets told us Elvis wouldn’t become very old, so we took precautions. But Fluffy turned out to be more of a people dog than a dog’s dog. Almost 2 years ago we nearly lost her after major surgery, but she is a very strong dog and made it through. With a lot of love and some help with natural medicine we pulled her through. She loves long walks, no matter what the weather is!

So we come to the cat’s part!

This is beautiful Luna. Luna is a Siberian Cat (with a pedigree), and she was born September 18th, 2007. We have had her since she was allowed to leave the litter. She is fully grown now. Siberian Cats take a long time to fully grow up. She is a Seal Tortie Tabby Point, and she is at her best in the winter, when her coat is full and dark, and her facial mask is also darker. These colors are called Neva Masquerades. She has beautiful blue eyes but is cross-eyed. That is the reason we were not allowed to breed with her. Not that breeding was our intent, but because of the cross-eyedness we were able to buy her. If she had normal eyes the breeders would have kept her for breeding themselves. She is our spiritual cat, she talks to you and she loves sleeping, hanging about and eating, but not everything. She can follow you around like a little dog. She is very to herself, she likes us, and she tolerates the other cat and the dogs. When we have visitors she mostly retreats. When I spend too much time behind the pc she just will come and block the screen so that is my queue to stop 🙂 . She loves being outside, just lying under some trees or bushes, watching everything go by. She is very smart, and calm. She can purr like the best!

And finally we have the youngest one of the clan, Toendra. She is also a Siberian Cat (also with pedigree), and she is gorgeous. She was born on December 12th, 2008, and her color is Black Tabby Mackerel with white. And she should be fully grown, but she is a bit small. We are working on that at the moment; she probably doesn’t want to grow up. And maybe we don’t want her to do that 😉 She also has been with us since she left the litter. She is so full of life, a real treat. She is the adventurer; she is always up to something. She loves to lie on or near you, or near the dogs. She is a very social cat and when people come to visit she always comes to say hello. She thinks she is a dog! She loves to jump. She loves to eat, and she eats almost everything. She is very playful, and always is provoking Luna, and so she ends up with a scratched nose or ear or something like that a lot! But it doesn’t seem to bother her. Ever seen Simon’s cat? Toendra really is a Simon’s cat. She too loves to be outside (on a leash), but because she is so playful it doesn’t always work out……

So that is our current zoo. We’ve had a lot of other pets in the past, all kinds, birds, fish, rabbits, mice, guinea pigs, other cats. But I don’t want to have pets anymore that I have to keep in a cage, it doesn’t feel right anymore. Someday maybe we will be able to go live in the country where our pets can really move freely. Because of all the traffic and regulations where we live now, we have to keep them indoors and on a leash, and it doesn’t always feel right.

Love, barking and purrrrrssss

Diana, Richard (the husband), Elvis, Saraja, Fluffy, Luna and Toendra (or maybe the cats should be named first 😉 )

Proud to announce….

The birth of a work of art! This painting was made for us by Marjolein Kruijt, it is a painting of our 3 doggies Elvis, Saraja and Fluffy, we are sooooo happy with it!!!! It is with the frame-maker now (noooo) so we should have it back, framed and all, around January 19th…. And then we will give it a very prominent place in our house 🙂

Thanks again Marjolein, and we will be back for sure for our cats and maybe I will have something made for my own practice…